Max spends most weekends with his dad.
Some people have even alluded to the fact that I am "lucky to get a break every weekend" whenever our custody arrangement comes up in conversation.
While I am normal and human and certainly need a break from being in mom mode sometimes, I hardly feel lucky to get a "break" from my son every weekend.
When Max started spending two nights in a row with his dad, I was pretty much beside myself with worry the whole time in his absence.
Although I trust his dad, I still get anxious on Fridays when Max leaves and still breathe a deep sigh of relief on Sunday when he returns.
It's been five years and that part hasn't gotten much easier.
I don't anticipate that changing.
And...I just miss him when he's not here.
Lately, I wonder when Maeve will catch on that her brother has a different dad and that he goes somewhere else most weekends.
I wonder when she will realize that Max calls her daddy "Bill."
This summer will afford us the opportunity to be together more in a way that we haven't really experienced yet as a family.
I'm so grateful to be home with my kids now and nothing makes me happier than seeing Maeve light up whenever her big brother is around.
Summer vacation cannot come soon enough!